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My first sexual encounter, on video.

Not many people my age have video of their very first sexual “encounter”. I do. It was October 25, 1964. I was twelve and a half.

I’m not sure that I even knew what sex was at that time and had been well repressed enough to never have explored my own body as I’ve heard some little girls did.

It was a Sunday night.  Between 8 and 9 PM. I was sitting in a chair pulled up close to the TV….

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Embrace Your Damaged Self
rocking horse

Here’s something I’ve been watching and thinking about. A lot of people are trying to figure out who and how to be and are pissed off because they are damaged and it’s hard to overcome damage. I used to think, “As smart as I am, imagine what I could have been if I hadn’t had to deal with so much damage just to reach zero” and I was resentful. I didn’t realize that the majority of people ARE damaged,…

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Politics… The Middle Way

Today – after some snoozing – I am going to vote. I am not going as a republican or a democrat. I am not identifying with the left or the right but with The Middle Way.

“At the social and political level, the Middle Way could be expressed as the commitment to upholding respect for the dignity of life and placing it before adherence to a particular political or economic ideology.”*

It saddens me to see the meanness of politics and…

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Two Perspectives – Hope and Hopelessness

love this but there is always another way to look at things, isn’t there?

I believe my life was saved by hopelessness. More than half my life ago now, my struggle was big. My children were small. I went from day to day trying to change, trying to do better, trying to be better. In such struggle we are (probably universally) either unable to see what exactly needs changing or without the ability to make the…

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In Love With Love
rumi heart quote

It was probably in the Fall of 1972.  It was a beautiful day and I was riding around in a van, the van driver – who had a route to drive to pick people up at work or appointments, do errands – was a beautiful young man with long flowy hair with whom I was in a very new and wonderful relationship.  I had recently had a near death experience, causing my outlook and perspective to be far more…

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